Written from a space of: Victory
At 19 years old, I gave you all of me, not a piece, but all
From my heart, to my mind, to body, to my soul
I gave it to you and I trusted
Trusted that you would do it justice
Trusted that you could care for it relentlessly
Why had I trusted so blindly
16 years I gave you all that I could give
All of my space, all of my friends, all of my energy
And like a vampire you sucked every ounce
I was drained, weak, downcasted
I could barely stand on my own two feet
Why had I given so freely
So much time invested, so much loss in self
Self-worth, self-respect, and self-identity
My thoughts were no longer my thoughts
My actions were only to be of your accord
Where had I gone and could I ever be found
Why oh why didn't I invest wisely
From the depths of my soul, I yearned to be free
To be released from this bondage that held me down
I could no longer sustain this image you upheld of me
It was exhausting and not the least bit rewarding
With my head held low, I took a step towards freedom
I was starting to breathe again
What a weave you masterfully entangled
You no longer had my body, but kept hold of my mind
Confused as ever, I could not understand why
For I had to learn how to walk, to talk, and to think again
Starting over and creating a new me
I was starting to live again
I was eagerly ready to take back what the devil stole from me
I was ready, God was ready, the world was ready
My mind and spirit would be renewed
My trust, my energy, my worth, would come from My Savior.
I knew then, I was ready to be born again
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