Written from a space of: Lightness
Put down the glass of wine!
No, I was not an alcoholic, but I did enjoy the feeling
Enjoyed the feeling of freedom
Freedom in thought
Freedom in speech
Freedom in the way my body moved effortlessly
Every Friday was an anticipation of fun
Oh to feel lighter, happier, more joyful
Every Monday was the sorrow of going back to normal
I desperately wanted the weekend to be my normal
I read, I prayed, I worked tirelessly
I didn’t want to give up but what else could I try
I wondered if I should accept defeat and give up the pursuit
Until one day, ONE word set me free
SELF-TRUST
What a wonderful concept
Couldn’t imagine what this would look like
Feel like, from years and years of abuse and lies
Where my thoughts and feelings weren’t kissed and loved
Where gaslighting was the sign for affection
SELF-TRUST
All the roles I held…
All the decisions I made…
All the selves I lost - self-identity…self-love…self-worth…
Were starting to take shape
Starting to blossom
Starting to sing and ring true to its inner being and soul
SELF-TRUST
Wiggled it’s way into my life
And I will forever be changed
Forever know I have my best interest
Forever know I’m more than capable
Forever know I.am.Nyta
I TRUST HER NOW
At present, there is joy
There is fun
There is freedom
There is all the feels
There is the weekend
Every. Single. Day
Without the glass of wine
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